Filed Under Thoughts
I was sitting here with thoughts of yesterday flowing through my head. There were many incidents about people or stories that were told, got me thinking but one that struck the cord louder than most was a mother and her autistic child.
In my writing class, a mother brought her autistic child to class. He looked about 20 but demeanor no more than 10. She shared with us her reason for attending the class - to write a book about her life with her son and the struggles she faced. She hoped that one day, she would be able to record all of this down in a book to share with the world.
I thought that was brave, very brave! Yesterday, as usual, we were asked to write practice pieces in class. The mother wrote about her memory of being at the neurologist office when her son was being diagnosed with autism at 3 years old. She shared about how insensitive the neurologist was to her and the situation and referred them to someone else who was no better. At the end of the day, our course instructer remarked that it must’ve been painful to relive those moments and worst to write it down. Surprisingly, the mother said that “It was painful…very painful in fact in the beginning but it’s now passed and she’s moved on beyond that“.
Silently, I was in awe and full of admiration for the mother. First of all, not only was she brave to bring her son along because I know many people would fold under shame. And some would just refuse to acknowledge their child’s condition. But not only has she accepted him, she’s proud to show him off to the world.
Secondly, she has put the past behind and now has emerge victorious in that she’s able to talk about it and open up. I think, if it was me, I’m not sure if I can ever ever speak of something that is so painful no matter how long it takes. Well, probably I would talk about it with my family but never in public and with strangers. And even with friends, it’s never easy.
Sometimes, or most of the time, the human strength is really something to marvel at, isn’t it? I mean, we always quit before we’ve begun. Stop before we’ve even started. Crumble even before knowing that things aren’t as bad as it seemed. We can truly triumph in any situation. We can emerge victorious even when the odds are stacked against us. All it takes is a way to overcome our fears and we will be set free. Nothing is ever impossible, just our belief.
Filed Under Women
I can’t speak for the men-folk but perhaps, lately in recent times - there are no difference in their “self-obsession” with women. I mean, there are men out there who goes for facial, gym, wears contacts, shops for expensive branded clothes, shoes, etc…all things that women have been doing all these time.
And it got me thinking, why are women like that? Why can’t we just be happy the way we are? I mean, if we are of a larger size, we want to slim down. If we are of the slimmer size, we want to fatten up. This is especially true when we start comparing ourselves with other people. I bet you that out of 10 women, 9 would have their image changed if they were to bumped into an old friend or an acquaintance whom in their opinion looks like a sex-goddess. These women will go to extreme lengths including plastic surgeries, popping pills, starvation and even orovo detox just so that they could change what God has intended them to be. I find that so incredibly ridiculous!
OK, you might think that “sure, you probably look perfect, so bite me!” On the contrary, I am far FAR from perfect. But, I’m not going all out just so I could look like some movie star or my super “body-licious” friend. I haven’t had my hair dyed even for crying out loud. True - I’ve never dyed my hair EVER and you could still spot some greys here and there.
Well, I’m just saying - why can’t we just be who we are and accept us for who we are? I guess not isn’t it? We always strive to look a certain way because we want others to have rave reviews over us. We want to hear that “you look great!“from other women and we want to go out on dates with men (it’s just the age old theory that men are only attracted to the appearance and nothing more etc…).
It’s just that isn’t it? I mean, if opinions didn’t exists and if we were robots, operating mechanically without emotions, without the ability to think for oneself, we would do no such ridiculous act like changing. I mean, in our mechanical minds, everyone would look the same and we would not judge others and neither would we judge ourselves. Seems to be that that is such an ideal place to be but the reality is, it’s never happening. Reality does bite!
Filed Under Thoughts
My first lesson at writing class taught us to write junk - whatever comes to mind. I thought “piece of cake!”..until I had to do so like in 2 minutes…or 4 minutes (if the “teacher” is generous). Happy to say that I’ve survived, thankfully!
I will never have wanted anything any other way but things always happen so spontaneously. I would plan and plan but never turns out right or the timing will go all wrong.
My schedule is somewhat packed till the beginning of December. That is, in more ways than one - a good thing. It’s exciting but at the same time, I am always cracking my head for ideas instead of getting the ideas that are already in my head. Frankly, these days, I am usually out of ideas. Entertaining a toddler and trying not to puke, is enough for my little brain to handle.
I’ll be getting some new lenses. That should bode well for my little hobby.Pretty expensive but an essential. And I simply cannot wait. All in all, things are turning out pretty ok. However, there is still this “severe” acne problem that I’ve been having. I’m not sure if acne spot treatment will do the trick. Hope this gets better with time. Fingers crossed!
Filed Under Family
Well, I was given a run-down of who is going where this coming holiday. Most are heading towards HongKong, the nearest Mickey’s place (and possibly most affordable). Makes me drool. Even though, I am sure a Vegas vacations beats everyone of them but who am I kidding? I can’t even go to an open house without feeling pukey, let alone a 7 hour flight to neverland.
Yeah, I am being a b*&*^. As much as I will miss this year’s fantastic opportunity for a long-need family vaca but something’s gotta give. I’ve made Gnat promise that the next time we are travelling, we will be heading towards Orlando to meet our future son-in-law and his parents. Damn straight we are! And I don’t want no Canto talking Mickey either - I want the real deal!
Filed Under Women, Thoughts
We all face tough decisions at least once in our lives. Some face harder questions than others.
A dear friend is going through that painful and difficult (perhaps, the most difficult in her life!) decision-making and execution process as we are speaking. She had to decide not only for herself but for her child’s life that they would both live without the father. I am pretty sure millions of questions must’ve gone through her head as she thought about doing this as it affects not only her but her child.
It’s sad to hear something like this happening. It’s even more sad to hear that this is happening to your dear friend. And as a friend, I can only offer words of comfort and well, basically be a friend - to stand by her and providing her with emotional support. Sometimes, in this practical world we live in, are those even enough? Perhaps momentarily but when she gets up every morning, she faces reality. She faces her child’s beaming eyes looking up at her with an innocent smile and with full confidence that her life is complete. Little that the little one knows this is far from it. And I am sure, for my friend, going through this is more painful than her own emotions.
But, there is always a clear blue sky after the storm. Perhaps not right away but after the dust settles, the dark clouds get blown over, there is always the sun - shinning brightly from above. It’s God’s way of telling us everything will be ok and that he is watching over us and keep us safe. And I know that better days are awaiting both of them because I believe they earned and truly deserve it. Why shouldn’t they be happy? They will. You’ll see.
Filed Under Thoughts
I’m feeling better. Slightly. Still having that yucky feeling lingering about some days. No, actually, it’s all days! The difference is that, it gets worst in the evenings and through the nights. However, I’m feeling better so I am definitely looking ahead and forward.
Gnat has this ingenius ideaof getting a sand-box and miniature pool for Ash when we house-sit for my in laws later in the year. I betcha’ that both Gnat and I will be the one enjoying ourselves more than Ash! LOL…Since it is also predicted the rainy season by then, we will need to get some outdoor furniture covers. You know, just in case cos we don’t want our furniture soaked and diminish the quality of the wood and fabrics.
Sounds like quite a bit is happening doesn’t it? Well, for starters, there will be, slightly even though the major part of our plans have changed. Quite disappointing but for a very good reason.
So, with that, you’ll just have to wait for when the time comes and when the photos are up. In the meantime, you have a great weekend!
Filed Under Thoughts
It’s either my house or my phone that is the problem or both!
I’m not sure why but somehow whenever we use our cell-phones at home, there will be no signals at certain parts of the home. Sometimes, there would be no signals at all - upstairs, downstairs or anywhere. I haven’t tried the bathrooms so I won’t know for sure but from the looks of things, I wouldn’t bet on it being any better.
At same time, I can’t rule out the lousy service that our local mobile service providers provides anyway cos they are certainly not that realiable. True! They can be a real pain at times. Or correction - ALL.THE.TIME!
So, how do I deal with this intermittent flashes of signals? Get a cell signal booster maybe? That could be a solution. If not, I will just rely on my trusty land-line that more often than not, never fails me.
